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Sunday, June 26, 2011

Frizz...


The above puff is my fluffy hair- which was supposed to be a knot out but the humidity just made my hair into a cloud. Like I don't even know what to do anymore with it. The humidity here in the Bahamas takes my hairstyles and makes it frizzy- no matter which conditioner or hair product I have used. A friend who lives in Florida gave me some ideas and now I hope I can get everything on the list.

Hopefully within a month it will be much better & less frizzy. Someday soon I will give you my hair regimen (once I sort it all out & get my hair under submission.) So that is it for my hair check in (seven + months post BC) and I hope you all stay safe!

The Diarist

Fit...

Just like a shoe, if someone is meant for you, they will fit perfectly; no forcing, no struggling, no pain...
Is this one a perfect fit?

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Eighteen...



At eighteen she graduates high school with honors & attends her first prom- this blog is to the beautiful girl who captivated my heart when our parents married & we became sisters. I love you Shellie! You continue to make me proud!

Friday, June 24, 2011

Advice...

You ever notice that everyone has ideas on how you should do everything- even the persons you are not that close to? Someone told me they thought I should either lock my hair if I wanted to stay natural or perm it straight because they didn't like the way I looked with my hair in a puff. To that idea all I could say was no. I refuse to wear my hair the way others want me to wear it. I take others ideas into consideration (like my parents who control how often I have access to my sisters, William and a very few close friends), but for the most part it comes down to my happiness.

Everyone has there two cents on how you should go about being you- you at times have advice for them. How do we sort through the riff-raff to find truth and beauty inside these nuggets/morsels of advice? We do this by turning to God in prayer not in some things (as I make the mistake of doing), but in ALL things. He in turn turns our dying to ourselves into something truly beautiful.

SO next time someone says something to you that you disagree with or see no merit to pray on it & let God show you the way in which you should walk. He knows the way better than anyone else does.

Until next time keep Philippians 1:6 in your heart and spirt.

The Diarist
For every moment of our lives is to be taken in and reflected on.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Falling...

An old man once said, “There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living.”
~Repost if you agree.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Family...


I sat down yesterday and talked to my mom about my family history. I learned about the Spanish, the Creole, the mulattoes and the negroes. To think I could go back and have this diverse family tree was fun, mostly because living here in the Bahamas I feel like being Creole is seen as something not lovely but ugly, dirty, smelly- in essence repulsive.

My maternal grandmother- Marguerite was the daughter of a very rich Haitian woman (whose mother was mulatto. My great-great grandmother was originally from France.) She had two siblings, a sister who went on to become a nun in Canada and a brother who was a general in the army (before it was corrupt.) My granduncle and aunt donated over fifty acres to the Catholic Church in Haiti & the township that they were from. My grandmother has six children alive and through five of those kids there are thirty-two grandchildren.

She passed away when I was five or six. I never met my grandmother because she lived in Haiti & we lived here in the Bahamas. Through her kids I have heard through stories that she was amazingly warm and wonderful. Her kids remember her fondly. She left them a legacy that cannot be matched many other places. She left for them approximately one hundred and sixty acres for her children and grandchildren. To be related to an Omer means that you are someone in the land of my ancestors- to be related here does not mean much of anything. In Bourne, Haiti I am family to a rich and vast history.

My paternal grandfather was Haitian-Cuban. His mother was a mulatto Haitian lady (who my mom called her Gran Lili) and then his father was from Cuba. Through this merge came children who were world savvy. My grandfather grew up traveling between Haiti, Cuba, the Bahamas and Florida. Growing up with the ability to do this he made the choice to became a merchant as an adult. And just like many merchants of that day he had a lot of children by many different women. My mom estimates that her father had about thirty children, inclusive of the three he had with her mother. Their family makes up another huge family name in Bourne, Haiti.

Learning this goes a long way to make me feel better as a young Haitian-Bahamian woman. What I find interesting is that many times we allow our family histories or how society views us to give us our self-worth. When ultimately we have been given the best family history through Christ’s death upon the cross. When He died and rose again we were reborn into His family at our acceptance of His love and gift. Even as I allow the new information I received lift my spirits up I know that only what is done & gained through Christ will last.

I look at my family history and know that when I stand before God nobody else’s works will get me into heaven- God has no grandchildren. I come from a line of courageous and wonderful people but ultimately it boils down to me. Who I am in Christ’s love, and how I live my life for Him.

In the end remember that no matter how big or small your legacy looks in the eyes of humans God loves and cares for you. No matter what! He has plans for us & He wants to give us a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:10-14). Keep Romans 5:8-10 in your heart and Spirit!

The Diarist
For every moment of our lives is to be taken in and reflected on.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Insanity

This coming Sunday, I will begin the exercise dvd's for the Insanity Workout. YAY!!! I am SUPER excited because I plan on eating like the plan tells me while also keeping track using a food journal on my computer. I am so excited! The plan is to use this week to prep myself- going walking, running, and doing other exercises to get my body into some semblance of shape. If I follow all that I have planned I should start loosing between 3-7 lbs per week.

As I was looking through my photos I realized that two years ago I saw myself as fat when really I was a nice and healthy weight. I want to be healthy again. I am so excited that this time changing my diet will cost me nothing but time and honesty with myself. So say goodbye for real to the fluffy Natasha & I hope that 3 months from now I would have lost 20- 40 lbs & in 6 months lost an additional 20. At that point I will begin the harder process of keeping it off.

No more yo-yo dieting- just pure healthy stuff! Keep 3 John 1:2 in your heart & spirit: "Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth."

The Diarist...
For every moment was meant to be taken in and reflected on.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Highway...




It seems that in life most people have the idea that it is their way or the highway- when it isn't. It is ultimately about God's way. I am sitting here worrying (which then turns to fear) about my future and how I want it to play out in a manner that others will be proud of. I have to finish training at the right time, have the right job, marry at the right time with all the right blessings, have kids at the right time 3-5 years after getting married. But it is not about what others want- it is about what God wants.

I recently found out that a friend is expecting a child and I am so excited for her but I know that many around me would say that she is not being wise or using her twenties wisely. Why is she not I wonder? Why is it that to be seen as a modern woman I am told to buy into the lie that wanting kids before thirties is wrong? That I have to save the world before I can be a wife or mother? Like how is the life she is living hurting anyone? She has one of the greatest jobs in the world- being a mother to children that God blessed her with.

Today I went to my younger sister's graduation where a lot of the mothers were about my age or just a few years older which kinda threw me for a second. Like whilst I was babysitting my sister in high school they were having kids. It kinda made me wonder how old the mothers will be when I have kids. I am twenty-five and in under a month will be twenty-six with no kids on the horizon for a little while longer. I noticed that though there were young mothers the kids were excelling. Who is to say that their kids would not end up being proteges of some sort?

Who tells us what we are to do with our lives? Why do we feel like we should live up to what they have told us? At times the urge to have a child is really strong but I feel like the timing isn't right in God's eyes- no matter how much I may want it. Is it wrong to want one? No! For me what is wrong is when others dictate when it is right for me to have/not have one.

Me & my then 1 yr old god-daughter (she has helped me to quiet my yearnings)




I absolutely adore children and I have always known that someday I am to have my own. In the end it is just another ramble because I am tired of being TOLD when it will be okay. Only God knows when that day will be- and when it is okay to have kids no ones opinions will matter but me & my husband. So if it is today, tomorrow or ten years from now only God knows and can tell me what to do. So guess what- I will take that highway... Thank you but no thanks!

I just can't get why people could not love these sweeties... to each his own!

Keep Matthew 7: 13- 14 in your spirit as you remember that it is God's way or no way!
“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.” 

The Diarist
For each moment was meant to be taken in and reflected upon...