Why am I doing all of this now? I truly can't answer that right now. Why wait until I'm married to begin this process? I think its all apart of me becoming one with my husband. Creating a cohesive unit that will not be broken.
Another aspect of this change that has taken time for me has been having to change my name. For the first time on Wednesday I had to fill out an application form & tick married. It was kinda weird as I am so accustomed to the single box. For now my name is hyphened but on our anniversary I'm dropping my maiden name (which is hard for me to think of doing). I've started practicing my new signature for the purpose of all the forms I have to fill out and stuff but I miss my 'NR' initials. I even had a pretty Rose that went under my name. Its a lot of changes for me to accept in what feels like so little time.
Change I have come to realize is not always bad- it can be good in so many ways. I'm allowing myself to become the woman God created me to be in this time of change. I never thought it would all go down like this- but now I realize as- I daily write my goals, as I open my heart to God's leading, as I share more- that everything happens at a certain time in all of our lives. This is my time! I'm claiming it & looking forward to all of the newness that comes with it!
Keep Ecclesiastes 3:11 in your heart & spirit today!
The Diarist
Every moment is meant to be taken in & reflected on.
