Some of you by now should know that my uncle passed away suddenly yesterday. I have yet to find out what really happened in the events surrounding his death at work. All I know is that today I am left with a chest full of pain as I come to grips with the reality of his death.
It is unfair to me how a man who is so good and so nice to all he met could die like that. A fall or explosion that caused the fall. I want to beat at my chest and cry because the pain I feel is too great for words. I can't believe that I wont see him ever again- I wont be able to hug him & tell him what is going on in my life lately. Every time I saw him he encouraged me to continue striving- it is because of him I was able to talk to my mom about dating at sixteen. His death leaves me here feeling cold & alone.
I know that I am not alone but I don't know who I can talk to about how I fully feel. My fiance wants me to open up to him more but I don't know how to fully explain how I feel. I can't really even open up in this form at the moment. Maybe in a few days, weeks, months or years I'll be able to express it- but for now thanks for listening to my minor ramblings...
Nat
