Apple

Pick up an apple and ask practically any child in the Bahamas (over the age of 3) what it is and they can identify it. It has been so deeply ingrained what an apple looks like that we all can imagine an apple whilst reading this (event without the picture).

I was just thinking today how someday I want my name (Natasha Rufin) to be just as identifiable in the literary world at large. When you hear Rufin you think of me. How can I achieve this? Not hiding my talent (as I am oft times prone to doing). Just had to pop in to remind you not to hide your talents or your individuality. Find your identity- like the apple.

Keep Luke 11:33 in your heart & Spirit.

The Diarist

Personality

I'm growing a new personality. (He that hath ear let him hear...) Its not at all easy for me. I feel like I'm changing so much daily that my husband & I at times don't know what to expect next to happen to me. I've lost at least thirty pounds (which is ok) & I've been eating a lot more health as I've cut out the fast food & lots of junk.

Why am I doing all of this now? I truly can't answer that right now. Why wait until I'm married to begin this process? I think its all apart of me becoming one with my husband. Creating a cohesive unit that will not be broken.

Another aspect of this change that has taken time for me has been having to change my name. For the first time on Wednesday I had to fill out an application form & tick married. It was kinda weird as I am so accustomed to the single box. For now my name is hyphened but on our anniversary I'm dropping my maiden name (which is hard for me to think of doing). I've started practicing my new signature for the purpose of all the forms I have to fill out and stuff but I miss my 'NR' initials. I even had a pretty Rose that went under my name. Its a lot of changes for me to accept in what feels like so little time.

Change I have come to realize is not always bad- it can be good in so many ways. I'm allowing myself to become the woman God created me to be in this time of change. I never thought it would all go down like this- but now I realize as- I daily write my goals, as I open my heart to God's leading, as I share more- that everything happens at a certain time in all of our lives. This is my time! I'm claiming it & looking forward to all of the newness that comes with it!

Keep Ecclesiastes 3:11 in your heart & spirit today!

The Diarist
Every moment is meant to be taken in & reflected on.

Filled

Psalm 16:2, 5, 8

I said to the Lord, “You are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing”…

Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure…

I have set the Lord always before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.

My mantra for 2012 is that: “Life is FILLED with GOOD things!” I am assured of this through Christ. He is my good thing- my wonderful portion. But He has given me so many good things that I have taken for granted. I want to change the paradigm with my blog this year- it is no longer about just what I am going through- but about the good things God has blessed me with. No longer am I focusing on the giants in my life- I am now focusing on the God who has equipped me.

I am so happy- but even in my happiness there is sadness (as to be expected), and I am using my God focus to keep me floating through this. Someday I will look back at the tapestry of my life and understand how it all came together. 

This is also my year of newness- it is so much new life blossoming around me I can go on endlessly about it. I want to dance ridiculously and scream about it from the roof tops- but in time everything will be revealed. (Yes I am being cryptic again- but I have to be for now.) Until next time I hope you are blessed and that you continue looking for the good things in your life.

The Diarist

Every moment is meant to be taken in and reflected on.