Ridiculously...

It is the end of another year- and I am in awe of the amazing things God has done for me. I have completed my course with A's, I'm blessed beyond measure in my relationship, and got one very big surprise the other day. I want to spill all the beans but can't for another few weeks.

Today my readers- I am RIDICULOUSLY blessed!

Until the next time keep Job 8:21 in your heart & Spirit.

The Diarist

Today

 How do I get back there?

Today I stand here feeling unsure of where I am

Even when I tried to run away you found me.

Kept calling my name

I knew too much of what joy

Could be found in You to ever truly leave,

Here I stand- I want to move on with you 

But I am a broken vessel, 

I am dirty, I need to be cleansed.

I keep forgetting that with you there are no 'buts'

I don't know how You will turn my mess into Your glory

Why You would bless me with new life

Why would You be good to me who has not loved You properly?

Why today?

This morning all I am feeding my spirit is wonderful Christian music and it has made me think of the state that my own walk with Christ is at. There are a LOT of changes going on in my life- and this weekend was hard as it made two months since my cousin Joanna died. In every cloud in my life there has been a silver lining. Whenever I lost someone God would open the door for new connections. Today I thank Him for new connections and the blessings found in old ones.


Today there is so much I want to say- but so much that I cannot say, so I will prudently leave it here. Until the next time keep Jeremiah 29:11 in your heart & spirit.

The Diarist
For every moment is meant to be taken in and reflected on.

Nights

For the next few weeks night shifts are happening for my PCT course and as time goes by I realize that I miss the time I would spend with my fiancé. It is a hard fight to sit up each night and head into my internship. Especially nights like tonight when we only spent 30 minutes together due to his classes.

Until life is better and I don't have to work as hard we will have to get use to it I guess. I'm going to stay positive so that I don't get discouraged.

Be blessed and keep II Timothy 1:7 in your heart & Spirit.

The Diarist
Every moment is meant to be taken in & reflected on.

Excitement

My excitement cannot be contained as I pull out my uniforms, shine my shoes, and figure out how I will wear my hair. Today is my last free Sunday for about 4 weeks. Tomorrow night I start my internship as a Patient Care Technician. I'm nervous because I don't want to mess up, but excited that this is the final hurdle for this step in my life's plan.

For me, this next month will be hard as many nights I won't be able to sleep or I will be running on two hours worth of sleep. But I will get through it and celebrate with a well deserved trip to a wonderful destination sometime next year. I'm very blessed today- no matter what people may say or try & tell me.

Just stopping by to catch up. Until next time Matthew 5 for you!

The Diarist,
Every moment is meant to be taken in and reflected on.

Tre Chic...

I got my sister to work some sewing magic & now I have a wonderful style that matches so well with my natural hair that you can't really tell its not mine. lol. This is my protective style for this month and I am so excited about it.

Just takes a little thing to become inspired again. I'm also so excited about getting my hair colored when it come out. What color do you think I should color it? I'm thinking a pretty spicy like amber/red.

Until next time be blessed & stay inspired! Keep James 1:4 in your heart and Spirit.

The Diarist
Every moment is meant to be taken in and reflected on.

Uninspired

As of late I have been kind of uninspired with my hair. It has gotten to that really funny phase- the medium yet still short length. It is too long for older styles but too short to do what I want to do.

What should I do? I sat down and I'm trying out a twist out hair style and I pray it comes out as nice as I want it to. It has been almost a year post bc & I have learned a lot about my hair. I truly love my hair but sometimes I miss it being straight. It is because of this that I am also contemplating a Brazilian blowout- hopefully it acts just the way it should.

Well people- I gotta run, until next time I pray you keep Habakkuk 2:2-4 in your heart & spirit. Write your vision & live righteously.

The Diarist
Every moment is meant to be taken in and reflected on.

Rainbow...

It has been just about two weeks since I took the above photo. I was in my backyard chatting with my cousin Joanna about life & we saw the rainbow. I went crazy as usual because anytime I see a rainbow I think of how God's Promises are real and eternal.

For the past few days I've been depressed as my cousin Joanna passed away on Monday. I've been yo-yoing through the phases of grief since she passed. Its hard as I took her to be like a sister and her death was not really expected. I find myself crying at the least expected times.

The only way I have been able to forget has been to immerse myself in work & school. Walking around my house has been hard as I keep finding things she left here. Even the photo of the rainbow has made me cry at times knowing she was with me that day. How do you get past the death of someone you held near to you?

When my uncle passed it took about three months for me to not cry at the thought of his death. With Joanna I think it maybe a little while longer. But I know that God promises to wipe away every tear from my eyes someday, that He keeps a bottle for my tears, that He will strengthen and encourage me.

As I leave today- I ask that you pray for & with me as I go through this phase. Remember that He alone knows the plans He has for us- it promises to be filled with hope. I'm looking at each rainbow with hope. Keep Psalm 32:8 in your heart & Spirit.

The Diarist
Every moment is meant to be taken in and reflected on.
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